Breaking of a New Dawn

It’s a lifelong story for me and a typical one for a woman – a struggle to be at a healthy and attractive weight. It seems like I have always been on a diet yet I have only had one time when the diet was successful and I was very pleased with the outcome. Unfortunately it’s two years later now and my struggle is still going on. Yes, I lost the weight but I was so focused on NOT gaining the weight back that I have done just that – I have gained weight!

I realized that I was bringing this on myself. By focusing on weight all the time it was just like I was asking to gain and then I did. I ate “fake food” with artificial sweeteners that caused me to crave more sweets. Since I felt I couldn’t have much bread I craved bread and then I would overeat bread. It’s ridiculous!

As a result I have a new thought process, one that involves visualizing myself as slim and trim and healthy. Little my little my body is beginning to reform itself from what it is to the new vision. I fully expect this to work. I am not dieting. I am eating what I please and the funny thing is that what I please to eat isn’t loads of rich fattening foods. Yes, I plan to eat whatever my body wants me to eat. My body and mind are still getting used to this idea. I expect that my mind is beginning to notice that eating good healthy food will give the results as seen in the mind’s eye, at the weight I think is right for me.

This is not just a quest for a certain look. My body isn’t perfect even at a healthy weight. No one really has an ideal figure but I will say that when I finished that diet 18 months ago I really was pleased with how I looked. In addition to my looks, I felt marvelous – had energy to burn! I could run upstairs. I had the shock of my life one day when I picked up my mother at her assisted living facility, realized we didn’t have some papers so I ran up the stairs and down a long hallway to her room to get them. I couldn’t find them so ran back downstairs to ask her where they were. Then I ran up the stairs and did the whole sequence again. When we got into the car after all of that I realized I wasn’t even winded! At 67 years old I had more energy than I had when I was 50.

That was when I weighed 22 lbs. less than I do now and I want that feeling and look again. Right now I am threatened with having to take medications for high blood pressure and Diabetes – the ones I had to take when I was heavy. They are costly and they are artificial products that I know don’t need to be in my body if I weigh what I am supposed to weigh. I can avoid taking medications by getting my weight down.

I weighed myself this morning and I don’t plan to weigh again for several weeks because I want to keep my mind on the vision and don’t want to bother with trivialities that could distract me from the vision. If I can visualize it, then it will be so. Besides, there are other ways to measure weight loss. The best one is when the clothes start being a bit too big. That will be soon – LOL! I’ll keep you posted on my inner transformation.